I have had issues with depression as of late; post-op bullshit of course. Nothing out of the ordinary there. I realize a few things. 1) yes, I know I have a cast on my leg 2) yes I realize I am on crutches 3) yes I know I can only use one leg right now 4) yes I know I have limited access to my hands. I also realize that my composure is less than bubbly; but here's the deal world............ if you ask me repeatedly over and over again every five to ten minutes if I'm okay, chances are I will snap.
I am getting so damn sick and tired of people patronizing me. I've stopped going out to places because of it. I've stopped hanging out with my friends because of it. So I am basically stuck in my own little hell I like to call my house and hell I'm even patronized here too! I can't fucking get up without someone asking if they can help me with something. Guess what, not everything that I do requires hands on help.
So I mentioned earlier that I have been going through bouts of depression because of this stupid shit and yes it does affect how I act around people. One thing that truly annoys me is when people constantly say "I want you to be happy," You know what'll make me happy, assholes? STOP SAYING THAT FUCKING PHRASE EVERY TEN MINUTES TO ME and maybe I won't act like such a bitch. And another thing........... if I say I'm fine, leave it at that; don't push it and push it. Because I will push back and I will not be a nice person when I push back.
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